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Standing by my self one fine day, I asked myself a question – Who am I? Of course, like anyone else – the “I am” in me is constructed by the past – my parents, my education, my job, my career, my happy moments, my sad moments and so on. So, if I were to take away all the coloring, if I were to take away my job or my career, or my family – where does that leave me? Don’t I have an identity of my own?
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And it struck me then that what I really am is the Sum total of my entire existence to the point of that self examination. A creature of the past, stuck in the present and thinking about the future, as if anything could get gloomier than that?
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When I understood that I also understood that to get to that point in my life all the journeys and the roads that I walked to get to the Now was necessary to make me the man that I am today. I would not have been the man that I am today if it were not for that pain or that bit of loneliness or that bit of joy, or that tough teacher or parent, or that bit of sharing – whatever the journey – whatever the road that I had walked – it was necessary to have walked that way for me to get here. I also realized with some trepidation that Life does not give us anything that we cannot handle, Life dishes out to each of us only that which we can handle.
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We presume that we cannot handle most of what Life metes out to us. The fact of the matter, however, is that Life is a journey and all that we are faced with and all that comes our way is meant for us. What happens to me, happened to me and will happen to me is meant for me – it is not meant for you, it is not meant for my neighbor – It is mine. My own set of lessons that Life is sending out to me is my experience – the stuff that will make me what I am meant to be. Nothing less than that will make me what I am meant to be.
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It is good to take a hard close look at our selves, be a little kinder to ourselves least we become bitter or envious of those that are seemingly better off than ourselves. We do not know the paths that those who are seemingly better than us have traversed. Or what realizations might have dawned on them for them to be seemingly better off than ourselves. It is indeed exactly those realizations which set us apart from each other as supremely unique Human beings.
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Life is a Good Mirror, Life is a Good Teacher – the question however is – what do we see and what do we learn? If we are not aware of these how can we define the big Who am I question? That question will probably never be answered if we are not forever asking ourselves the right questions, if we are not looking in the right direction.
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So look into the Mirror Oh You Whimpering Child that thinks your plate is full of misery and see the Hand of God in everything that comes your way. This moment and this experience is required if you are going to touch the Destiny parked on your distant horizon.
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